I'm really at a point where I could just cry. They think I have PCOS (polycystic ovarian syndrome) which could be contributing to my non-weight loss and causing excess bloating, etc. They started testing to see if my thyroid and other things are working properly because of the fatigue I've been having lately. It's really frustrating. I'm so tired these days that it's hard to get up an exercise. It takes effort just to go to the bathroom, much less get in my car, drive across the city, and exercise. I hope they get some answers soon so that I know how to combat this because I'm just wishing that I could have a normal life again.

Well, I've been told pain is weakness leaving the body. Uh huh. Yeah. Then I must be the weakest person on earth. Every day my pain gets slightly less and I can walk slightly more than the day before. Still not up to walking the whole time in Florida I don't think, so my little green machine wheelchair will be coming along.

Whooped up on some college students in wheelchair sports today. I love being speedy on the court. Since I can't run, this sort of satisfies my "need for speed."

Trying to workout at the gym. Why do I feel strange about being the one in the pool for aqua aerobics who's jumping higher and working harder than everyone else? I am the one with the broken ankle... I guess maybe I'm more motivated than everyone else. It's still kind of frustrating though because I feel like people think I'm an overachiever or something and they will hate me for it.

Ok, I'm in total frustration mode. I had serious ankle surgery just over 12 weeks ago. They pretty much rebuilt my right ankle. In another year (hopefully, I hope it's not sooner...) I'll probably have to have the left one done unfortunately. I'm starting to get back into doing stuff at the gym. My weights are limited to mainly upper body stuff because my physical therapist doesn't want me to do lower body stuff until I have better proprioception in my ankle. Which is leaving me with water aerobics 3 times a week, other cardio stuff (which I do for about an hour at a time, treadmill, stairmaster, bike, etc.), and whatever else I can find, such as pilates.

Well, I haven't been doing much exercising the past 6 weeks because I had pretty major surgery on my right ankle. Rerouting a tendon to stabilize the ankle, repairing ligaments, and roto-rootering out some crap in the joint space.

So, here I am lying on my couch thinking about all the walking I'm going to do in a couple of months at Disney World. I hope I'm ready for it! I can't even bear full weight on the leg yet.

Oh, and in the middle of it all, I ended up getting a blood clot in my calf as well. Now that is the worst pain I've ever experienced!!!!

My crutches are making two of my fingers on my right hand are going numb. And I tripped over one of them and injured my good leg too. Sigh, will I ever stop injuring myself?

Boy, here I am working hard, but things seem to hardly be working and that's getting frustrating. Here I am spending a lot of time in the gym, expecting results and seeing some strength gains, but no weight loss. Sure, I can skate slightly longer now than before (ok, that was when I could skate, still having tendonitis problems) and that's great, but I want to be svelte, good looking, not the fire plug that I am now.

People are still giving me strange looks on the treadmill, but I guess that's to be expected when you walk normally on one side and clunk on the other. But, I'm working hard. I've started the initiation part of the Non-Runner's Marathon Trainer which works you up to running 3 miles a day so that I can finish the NYC marathon next year. See, I started planning now since I'm slower than molasses in January when it comes to running, so I need all 12 months to work up to it. I know, I know, slow and steady wins the race (ok, not in this analogy, but who's counting?)

Well, here I am gutting it out. Exercise is not fun right now while I'm wearing one of those big, ugly mid-calf walking support boots for a tendon problem caused by overzealous amounts of hockey. I seem to have injured my extensor hallucis tendon, for those of you familiar with skates, that would be A.K.A. Lace Bite. Don't ever skate 4 games in brand new skates!

I am proud of myself though for making it to the gym the last two nights. I've ended up on the recumbent bike and walking on the treadmill, along with some modified leg weights and my full upper body program. Hopefully I can make some upper body progress to cancel out the stalling out of my lower body.