It is May 1st. Weighed myself this morning, and I was at 216.1. This is the lowest my weight has been in at least 15 years, and I am feeling awesome. I am only 17.7 lbs away from my goal weight of 100 lbs lost. I have had a personal trainer for the last month, and she has helped me get past that pesky plateau, and on with losing weight again. I have also joined a running group twice a week. Ran a 5K road race on March 30th and will be running a 10K on June 7th. I am also now starting to train really hard for a 30K road race next March as well.

A few weeks ago I was doing a little searching on the internet. For years I had been interested in running a 5K, and was thinking about it as I was getting healthier last year. I knew that it was going to be a lot of hard and dedicated work. Last year I told myself that I would compete in a road race in 2008 called the Moon In June. The end of February came, and unfortunately registration was not open as of yet. During my searching, I came across a website that was talking about a road race on March 30th 2008.

Well, winter has set in, and after a few nasty winter storms, I am unable to get out for my usual runs anymore. Also, with a major snow storm just beginning and the cold weather sticking around, I am finally realizing that my running season is officially over. Now that winter has seemed to arrive with a huge bang, I need to find other ways to exercise, and continue on my healthy path. From the beginning of September to the beginning of December, I noticed that I had gained almost 15 lbs. Over the last 2 weeks, I have managed to lose 10 of those lbs.

Well, it has been a very tough couple of months. I was all ready to get back on track with my weight loss, and even was talking about it during my last blog on the morning of September 28th. Unfortunately, that night I heard some really bad news. My grandmother had passed away. I was so upset, and couldnt believe it. Since then, I havent been able to find much to keep me positive, and have slipped into a depression. I know she is in a better place, but it is still affecting me greatly. There are times that I get mad or upset for no reason.

Well, it has been about 2 months since my last blog. Been a really hard 2 months to get through. Finally started working again, but now I am doing work offsite, and the temptations are definitely there. Always passing by fast food places. Trying to stay away, but they are still attracting me, and I have given into temptation numerous times. I really need to resist the temptation. It is really hard. I am still running 5.4km 2-3 times per week, but I have hit a plateau and am gaining some weight back.

Well, it is half way though the year of change for me, and I am feeling a lot better than I was at New Years. Yes it has still been a year of ups and downs, but all in all, it has been a lot better than past years. I am still looking for a new job, but I havent let myself go at all health wise. I am not ready to give up all my hard work. I will admit that I have splurged a bit here and there, and have felt guilty afterwards. But, I have made up for it each time by continuing my running, and still trying to eat as healthy as I can.

I was sitting at home looking for a new job and thought I would write a quick blog. Recently I found out that I was being laid off from my job, and yesterday was my last day. It was completely unexpected since I had been at this company for almost 4 years, but with business being extremely slow, they had to let some people go. Unfortunately I had to be one of them. At first I was really upset and angry, and thought that I would return to my old habits and completely destroy what I have done in the last 2 months.

Been about 2 weeks since my last blog, so I thought I would post an update. Tonight I finished the best run I have ever had. I had so much energy, and actually ran a little longer. From my last run back on May 10th, I ran the same distance 3 minutes and 15 seconds faster. I couldnt believe how much energy I had. I dont think I had this much energy even as a child or teenager. Im not sure if I broke through a fat barrier or something, but whatever it was, I feel great. I usually run 5.4 km, but after my run, and about 1 minute walking, I decided to run almost another 1km.

As for my candida cleanse, I completed the first 10 days, and now have added fruit into my diet. I have lost 14 lbs in the last 2 weeks, which is amazing. I was figuring that I would lose between 20 - 30 lbs on this cleanse, so I am well on my way. I am now feeling better than I have in the last 5 years at least. I am so focused into getting fit and losing this excess weight. Only 54 lbs left to lose. I know I can do it.

Started a Candida Cleanse on Monday. Trying to clean out all that extra crap that I have put inside me over the last year. Been told that it takes a lot out of you, but I have done alright so far. I hear that some people have lost 20-30 lbs on this thing, so maybe this will help me as much. Some can't exercise on this thing, but I have been able to a bit. Not as much as I am used to, but who knows, this exercising might help. I did this last year and lost 20 lbs. Course the only thing I didnt do right last time was I went back to my old eating habits, and my exercising tailed off.

Right now I am feeling amazing. I have lost 10 lbs this month, and am feeling the best I have felt in at least a year. I am now running 3 times per week, and am running between 4km and 5.4km per run. I am really starting to feel better about myself and starting to believe that this weight loss can really be done. Still looking to lose 40-60 lbs, and really believe that it can be done. For the first time in a long time, I am looking at a long term goal, and believe that it can be done. Looking forward to my next result. I know that I can't always lose the same each week, but I wont let it affect me at all.